Sometimes

Is everything really ok now?

I feel like it's not sometimes...

but i can't explain myself, not to you, not to anyone.

It feels like i'm just pretending, like this isn't real.

The worst part being that i thought it was real, and now i think i was wrong. like i was even fooling myself , like even i was being played that i was not in control of the game, not even just a part of the game, but i am the game itself.